Have you ever had someone mention a certain kind of car, and it seems you are suddenly seeing them everywhere you look? The same can happen when sadness is strong within you. The sadness out there was always present, but it didn’t resonate as much with you until your heart was filled with your own. I can attest to this even with my loss several years past now. Perhaps I could never empathize as deeply until I experienced such a deep sorrow.
| Sadness Is Everywhere Sadness is everywhere it seems to me – online, on TV, and in every book I read. Maybe it was the same before my loss. I’m not sure for there was nothing to compare. Now my tears are a constant companion, waiting for any excuse to release my sorrow. A stranger is dying. The tears appear. A fictional woman dies giving birth, kindness is shown to the downtrodden-- all open the floodgates of my tear reservoir. Sadly, it only leads me to my real sorrow becoming front and center without reprieve. Every regret about the past rises up to join with all the fears about tomorrow. The tears flow until I can barely breathe. I finally reach an empty place in my mind that helps me push thoughts and feelings aside so I can put one foot in front of the other and pretend I’m okay until hopefully I will be. ©DWilliamsen |
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