Sadness Is Everywhere
Sadness is everywhere it seems to me –
online, on TV, and in every book I read.
Maybe it was the same before my loss.
I’m not sure for there was nothing to compare.
Now my tears are a constant companion,
waiting for any excuse to release my sorrow.
A stranger is dying. The tears appear.
A fictional woman dies giving birth,
kindness is shown to the downtrodden--
all open the floodgates of my tear reservoir.
Sadly, it only leads me to my real sorrow
becoming front and center without reprieve.
Every regret about the past rises up
to join with all the fears about tomorrow.
The tears flow until I can barely breathe.
I finally reach an empty place in my mind
that helps me push thoughts and feelings aside
so I can put one foot in front of the other
and pretend I’m okay until hopefully I will be.
I will read forever because it lets me visit in my mind the worlds that I will never be able to see; it helps me put away the stresses of the day and relax into the rhythm of the story before me; it lets me bring to the surface and experience without regrets those feelings I hide away; it lets me re-experience the thrill of first love through someone else's eyes; it keeps my mind juiced so that it will never desert me; it is always there for me even when there's no one else. I will read forever no matter whether it is print or digital because the words will always call to me. ~ A Sassy Scribbler