However, at my seasoned time of life, regrets seem foolish because it is blindingly obvious you can’t change a thing. It’s best to take a deep breath, take what you’ve learned and move ahead.
As strange as it may sound, I have no regrets about my life.
Because I have never deliberately tried to harm anyone,
I cannot feel remorse over situations that weren’t perfect.
I cannot change the past no matter how hard I might try.
I can only release garbage emotions attached to the memory
and see it with new eyes and a mind open to learning.
Did I sometimes handle things in a less than stellar way?
Of course I did. My journey has had a lot of baggage --
baggage that has lessened over time and through effort.
Life is about learning, not accumulating facts, but
rather learning what those less than stellar experiences
can teach me about myself, about who I really am.
There are sometimes flashes of remorse along the way,
but it occurs when I think back and realize I missed
an opportunity to change the trajectory of my journey,
to learn, to open my mind to a new understanding,
to more fully recognize my place in the Universe.
But, I’m soothed, knowing I always have another chance.
A major obstacle on my journey has been failing
to factor in the baggage of others in our interactions
and fully taking on the blame for any failure.
Another has been not allowing myself the privilege
of walking away from those loudly spewing garbage
and accepting I can’t help them on their journey.
I have my journey in this lifetime, and you have yours.
It has nothing to do with property, jobs, money, or race.
All these things simply provide opportunities to learn
about ourselves, whether we are capable of loving
ourselves and openly extending that love to others.
I’m grateful I’m not the same person of my younger years.
Aging can be a blessing if you allow your focus to shift from
Outer things to your inner world of thoughts and feelings,
Making the effort to learn from your mistakes along the way.
I do feel sadness about people I didn’t fully appreciate before,
But I can forgive myself now, knowing I did my best then,
And I bless them for giving me the chance to learn and grow.